sher's

i woke up at 2:08 today and i was like, '' what has gotten into me? ''
it seems tt ever since i started poly life, i've never seems to get enough rest, waking up in the morning feeling really awful. gosh. what has really gotten into me?
i guess i need that motivation and encouragement and the love from all those peeps i loved! and you all!
poly life is no where less stressful compared to jc life. our ICA are coming and the one coming next wed ( internet web publishing )and the other in a weeks time, oral com! OH MY GOD! i really need support from u guys!
in case anyone of u forgot, i have stage fright or rather, i can't speak in front of a large grp of ppl for goodness sake! i ll get tongue tied, legs go soft like margarine melting under hot sun!
i love to speak of course! and everything will go fine if i speak in front of a mirror oor whatever.gosh, how i wish during my ICA, mrs medorah ( my oral comm cher) ll be the only one in front of me!
and time management is like so impt and poly is like so independent learning and i can't gt used to checking the cms everyday and look out for hw, quizzes and etc. so stressful!
it seems that the spoon feeding system of cckss has really turned me into a 'spoiled brat! '
sch ppl are OK. but seriously, i really doubt if i can make any TRUE friends in school. everytime i felt the need to voice out in sch, i never dared to do so!
i really feel tt some ppl in my class are just like 4/9! the ever so ambitions people who just wanna strive for prefect grades and wear fake masks facing ppl! i really fear trusting ppl again, especially some ppl..
i really hoped that i didnt appeal to nyp, and rather stayed in sp. cos at least u all are there! i so miss you all and my gang .verytime i felt like crying, i just wish u all are there to share my burdens.
i was looking at statistic for business just now and started sobbing 'cos i dont understand it! its just like amaths. and accountancy for asset! my dears, i stoned in 2 hrs lecture not knowing what's going on! SOBX!
i haven made up my mind what to join. bt so far, im a member of nyp's nyaa student's club. i've signed up for photography club. the form to join nypsu in still lying on my table and im still pondering to join anot. i went for dragon boat for tuesday and its killing me cos of the running. i really CAN'T made it fo running! can u imagine, im the last to reach how PAISEH can tt be? my seniors are not very friendly as well. there goes all my self confidence in school already!
gosh gosh...what to do?